Growing up too quick

Currently: Sitting alone in the office and trying to convince myself that the proposal I'm working on is headed in the right direction. 

I've spent a lot of time convincing myself of certain things. Mostly about how money and experience is everything.

While I was on the train yesterday, something hit me. I should slow down. At the risk of sounding totally lame, I've not had a break since ever.

• Right after my O-Levels, I did an internship up till I had to enter poly.

• Before I graduated from poly, I did a mandatory 6-month internship that taught me so much but burnt me out.

• Right after I completed my Diploma, I started a job at an agency. Even prior to graduating, I was splitting my day between school and the office. I remember feeling so sian about graduating on a Friday and starting work full-time the following Monday. And in the 1.5 years I was there, I was only granted leave once. 

• Two weeks after I left my job, I flew to Australia to start on my degree. What a whirlwind that was. Instead of chilling out, I decided to apply for a position on the managerial team of a magazine. 

• Five days after returning to Singapore, I started on my full-time job for the summer at another agency. I will end 3 days before I'm slated to fly back to Australia. 

Thinking back, I can't help but wonder why I made decisions I did. Was it external pressure or personal hunger? Is it really a good thing to have it all? Do I want it all? Do I really even have it all? Keeping up with myself is hard.